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Zara, 140990hotmail/facebook/tumblr Dysfunctional in my stupor, but if you look beneath the surface, you'd find whimsical serendipity. — Excuse me while I kiss the sky Poetry
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Sunday, November 30, 2008, 8:36 AM
I've got a lot of things to do today. Closed my eyes around 4 plus and woke up at about 7.30am. This is not going well. At all. That reminds me, I've got to call Umma today. 8:39am, what are you doing now? Oh yes, that's right. YOU PEOPLE ARE HAPPILY ASLEEP. , 7:57 AM
It's a amazing in life how like most of the time a) you either hear alot of bullshit. b) You either aren't strong enough to withstand shit that keeps hitting you. c) You live in that shithole of both hearing alot of bull and letting shit constantly head your way. Of course, we'll also have the stereotype phrase that we all are guilt of saying "I don't care ". Now, let's be honest, the only reason why we even say we "don't care" is because in the first place, we actually did care about it. That's why, we tell ourselves after we hear it that, " oh ya I don't care". How many times can you safely say in your life, well... that you've said "I don't care" half the time? All the time? I doubt it. Well, at least I'm being honest about it. You hear alot of shit. What's funny is how ironically that you so happen to hear, bullshit from person number 1 and then bullshit from person number 2. Oh ya, and you hear person number 3 telling shit, oops I meant talking shit. So you start wondering to yourself, a) does it matter to you? b) how does that bullshit I've just heard or read can be reliably true that the person is actually talking about me or anything related to me c) instead of conquering that bullshit, well you make yourself as equal status as shit itself. You're a human, I'm a human. Hell yeah of course we're going to think about it. Ponder alittle over about this kind of thing and then either find a way around it, out of it or the dumbass way of blending in with it. ( Don't laugh, you could have at one point of time in your life blended in with it, I know I did.) See when people are generally talking shit around you, of course you're going to say " To hell with it, I don't care.". However the minute they aren't talking shit around you, and talking shit about you...Boy oh boy that's a different story. a) You could either deal with it like what everybody would tell you to: " Be that bigger person, that person isn't worth it anyways." b) You could assume that person did and was actually talking about you then by all means personally I feel that then issues need to be settled. c) You walk away from it. Nothing to do with pride nor ego. In this world, everybody is nice. Your nice, I'm nice, even that guy across the street is also nice. However, there will be people who you'll bum into that are generally heartless and they tell you that they "don't care" like they say they don't. Of course what rights? We've got to believe them. After all it's them who are the ones telling you that they don't care so. We're just responding to what they want us to believe is it? Sometimes when people generally talk shit about nothing they know of, now, that I find extremely hilarious. C'mon, think of it this way - They talking about something that they make themselves believe they know. When the actual fact is that they just got the rough idea that they think they know and then they start talking shit. It's nice to laugh at these people. Honestly, think about it. You too will start laughing at these people. Wednesday, November 26, 2008, 10:21 AM
pineapple tarts for breakfast Today's 26th Nov 2008 and it's 4 days till the end of this month. Firstly 4 days isn't enough, secondly everything's suddenly moving pass me without out me! 4 days to make a choice 4 days to study 4 days to catch up 4 days to know what I want I've got only for 4 days. Trust me, that is not enough. Now I'm starting to feel guilty for consuming those pineapples. Pineapple tarts, what have you done to me? On the contrary, do you think in 4 days I could possess some Supergirl strength and conquer the world? watch a movie in that 4 days meet my friends in that 4 days go for a massage in that 4 days grab a drink in that 4 days take a walk in town in that 4 days Do you think I can do all that? I'm wondering... Friday, November 21, 2008, 6:36 PM
Winter is coming sweethearts  Tarot card: The world represents the completion of a cycle and the attainment of inner peace and contentment. It is time to celebrate all that you have accomplished and bask in your successes. You have achieved a heightened sense of self awareness and a new appreciation for your surroundings. While this card doesn't rule out discomfort in your life, it does indicate that many of your trials and tribulations will soon be overcome. Everything is finally starting to come together! Not bad aye (: Great, now i've got to find something nice to wear. help anyone? xoxo. Thursday, November 20, 2008, 1:01 PM
SUPERMASSIVE BLACKHOLE OMG, IT IS THURSDAY. FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF. I finally looked at the calendar and realized how much time has past. omg. Sunday, November 16, 2008, 3:04 AM
Cut the cord Pay my respects to grace and virtue Send my condolences to good Give my regards to soul and romance They always did the best they could And so long to devotion You taught me everything I know Wave goodbye Wish me well. God, the lyrics are so beautiful. How one can relate to this chorus is the condolencences to the good, the soul and the romance in general like they are people who have just died. Like talking to five different people separately. Five human traits that one who no longer or can't desperately seem to find a connection to. Holding a conversation and saying to them, " you've taught me well but nothing is working right now. Wish me well, and we shall part our ways. ". wow, talking to characteristics like as though they are people. Not bad, the live performance was pretty mind-blowing too. Psychedelic ain't it? So, enjoy the video by The killers & this is " Human ". Bet your thinking back of a time in your life when you felt that way rights? Uh huh, yes I'm talking to you world. you = anyone reading this out there. Are we human? , 2:48 AM
-B -B -B -BBB -BBBUGISS. Realized that my previous entry got cut at the word -B. I saw and I was like " what the f..."! Hilarious -B. I was going to say -Bugis. However, chose to just delete the whole entire entry. I've noticed nowadays when I bring my cardigans out, I always seem to wear it. It could be just a spur of a moment or whatsoever, I'll just feel cold. It's a sign, to stock up on Vitamin Cs, and all those pills they tell you is good for health. Winter's not even here yet, I'm already feeling cold while walking the streets of singapore. How am I going to survive in -0 or -3 degrees there? Thursday, November 13, 2008, 5:54 PM
 Just thinking, tomorrow's going to be a long day! Realizing the place I've got to be 9.30am. Don't take No! for an answer (x , 3:07 PM
"I believe to be successful at anything you have to give it a 100% commitment and that is what I still do to this day." - Miranda kerr     Gorgeous gorgeous features. November 14,2007 Java Chip, Aldo, Nine west, Liat towers, Macdonald, and oldies on the Ipod. Wednesday, November 12, 2008, 9:09 PM
Take a deep breathe, and take the plunge The Ending. Grey's Anatomy last night was pretty interesting huh. Took me by surprise though didn't think last night's episode was going to be so intensed. Everyone is sleeping with each other. Addison slept with Mark, Addison slept with Derek, Derek slept with Meredith, Meredith slept with George, Geroge slept with Callie, Callie slept with Mark, Alex slept with Izzie, Izzie slept with George. Okay woa, too many names and i've lost track already man. Tuesday, November 11, 2008, 11:44 AM
Unforgivable inconsolable unbearable deceive. But your just a boy You don’t understand (and you don’t understand) How it feels to love a girl Someday you’ll wish you were a better man You don’t listen to her You don’t care how it hurts Until you lose the one you wanted Cause you taken her for granted And everything that you had got destroyed But your just a boy… It's been nothing but dark, stormy clouds. It's been nothing but filled with anger and hate, revenge, pain, inadequacy, sleepless. I don't want to live this way anymore. All this won't be able to just stop over a night, or over a month, god I hope not a year. I need to break away from all this. I should have stopped you, I should have seen the insignificant signs. I should have had better judgments. Honestly, I never saw this coming. The pain proofs how much i.. Sunday, November 9, 2008, 3:20 AM
Wonder you will have to answer to the children of the sky Standing by my window. I need to dye my hair. , 12:37 AM
Pay attention to me I don't talk for my health  Hmmm, where do i begin about last night? Haha, I'll just sum it all up, it was quite hilarious. Don't look at it in one way, but use your imagination when i use the word " hilarious". Music, danced, drank, and danced some more. Some experience I'll probably won't ever forget. Some night huh. I thought over time, things around me & things on my mind would get better. Time heals all wounds? I say Time makes you realize how long you've been stucked in a shit hole. Honestly, it's really time to get out of it. I'm sick and tired of feeling inadequate, i'm sick and tired of not being able to sleep, i'm sick and tired of feeling lonely, i'm basically tired. If i'm not tired, i'm just sick. It is time to get out of this hole that is just filled with bullshit.What makes everything even more upsetting these days is that everybody whom i love, seem to be straying away. One will be so busy with work I can't even see her, the other will be so busy in love her boyfriend, and then it all spirals all the way down after that. I miss everybody, i need you guys. I've got to pick myself up. xox. Friday, November 7, 2008, 8:11 PM
D-I-S-C-O.   Thinking of how tonight's going to be like. TGIF. Tuesday, November 4, 2008, 12:28 AM
Do you want to know a secret  It was my song to you and then.. Anyways, due to the universe not being with kind, I couldn't put up pictures I wanted to yesterday. No fear, it will be postponed but for sure it was still happen. The show must go on. Just like how people say life must go on? That 100% annoying phrase you wish you told people that you already know? Yes, i'm afraid so. Space, time, air, wind, blank, gap. Objects or feelings or such as this word " blank ", gives me the impression of nothingness. Is that truly it? Or does our subconscious mind make us believe that is what we're supposed to feel or react? Haha, anyways enough of all this twist shit. I'll keep it for a rainy day. Sat at starbucks with a classmate, coffee with a shot of expresso and off we go. Haven't gotten a chance to sit down and have a random conversation with someone. Talked about issues that made the heart even more fragile. Made tears swell up in my eyes and even a song that I long to hear. But can never because it will bury up old painful memories of a beloved one. Unchained melody. A song about a lady who once lived in yishun. Someone who was the world to me. Going to yishun has never been the same ever since she was gone. Memories came to haunt me whenever I was alone in that area. That place bears too much pain for me up to this very day. Imagine dipping your feet into ice water, and the adrenaline rushes up to your head that it hurts. Everything is coming to an end. Everyting are fading naturally on its own to re-become a memory. Without desire for it to die, it itself pushes you back and lets go off your hands. It chooses to become a memory without your consent. Reality is that person is dead, the world laughs at you coldly and says, " Too bad, you've got to live with that. " You close your eyes and picture for the last time that person is there. And zap, they're gone. Without a smile nor a touch, not even a goodbye. maureen, i've missed you so much. words can't describe how i feel. Years may have passed, but i've let you down. You told me that I had to learn in life to be able to accept whatever came my way, and learn to be able to say goodbye to things, animals, people, and so on. You knew my weak links so well. You knew I just wish for one day to see you again. And we'll dance to unchained melody once again. Sunday, November 2, 2008, 6:37 PM
I spy with my little eye, someone out there is bleeding  Halloween maybe over however the thought of dressing up that way was pretty fun. Never have I got to contemplate whether or not I've got too much on. It was just add more more and more. Stay tune for the picture show later. I've decided since pictures tell a thousand words, why not show instead of tell. Till later then :/ My heart doesn't feel so well. xox. Saturday, November 1, 2008, 5:49 PM
In the morning when you wake up  " The problem with fairytale is, that they set a girl up for disappointment. In real life, the prince goes off with the wrong princess. Or the spell wears off, and two lovers realize that they're better off as.. well.. whatever they are. " Don't we all crave for that happy ending? When it just don't exist anymore. |
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