Look into my eyes, and tell me what you find

Step in, Step out.

Look into my crystal ball.

mademoiselle
Zara, 140990
hotmail/facebook/tumblr

Dysfunctional in my stupor, but if you look beneath the surface, you'd find whimsical serendipity.
— Excuse me while I kiss the sky

Poetry
Men see things in a box, and women see them in a round room.

Exits
Allure
Bloom
Crane
Denotation
Enigmatism
Flair
Grace
Hope
Initiation

Archives
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Credits
©Glamouresque.

Thursday, April 30, 2009, 7:31 PM

ostracized alienation.

Sunday, April 26, 2009, 6:41 AM

I just lost my phone.

I still can't believe I no longer have my phone with me. I know i did make a little noise when I first got the phone. I wasn't used to the typing and how the whole phone was working. But I did really love it, in my materialistic desires I truly loved it. I loved how all the buttons had a different language wordings on them. I loved how I was never really fond of it being pink, but it just fell into place with me. I know material things should never matter in a person's life, however i just can't accept the fact it's gone. It's a device, with a battery running its life and when that battery dies so does all forms of communications that pass through it. What's just tearing me apart is, all the contacts and all the memories that i've experienced with that phone. All the messages, pictures and history and places i've been with that phone. Even without auto-roaming, i still brought it to Europe,India and Kl. All the memories and all gone.
Memories that are in the past should be in the past and not brought into the future. Despite all that bullshit we all tell ourselves time after time, you got to admit. (you do the same thing.)
There were some things from last year that was still dear to my heart even though that's all in the past now. Even messages from this year that had made an impact was all stored. People, loved ones, overseas details. Most people won't understand, but all of that meant something to me. And now, it's all gone like dust in the wind.
The whole time I had this running thought in my head : What other major obstacles in my life do i have to handle? Cause it seems everytime I get back up, something hits me down. Just as I switch off my overwhelmed racing mind, emotions took over. As I'm weeping by the riverside, I start to recall the last time I ever cried or had cried this hard was when I got my heart-broken. Tears were so foreign to my face, it was disturbing. It felt as though, from the moment till now I lost all my emotions. To have that thought in my head or to think that, that was even possible was just unexplainable.
People around me were trying to put positive words into my stubborn head, ( but we all know when you are overwhelmed with emotions you tender to just not listen.) And then it hit me, was this it? Was this the IT that I've been asking for? I've been questioning my life alot for awhile and just recently have more questioning done no good but filled it with more doubts. I asked for something, anything in my life to happen to give me a clue. Was the universe somehow letting me let go of everything, and starting something new? A brand new start or a better continuation without the past?
With that, to everyone out there please don't contact me with that number for now.

Friday, April 24, 2009, 10:43 PM

1,2,3.. poof

Thursday, April 23, 2009, 3:06 PM

The life of a rose.

, 2:44 AM

Give me books, french wine, fruits,
fine weather and a little music played out of doors
by somebody I do not know

- John Keats

Wednesday, April 22, 2009, 11:19 PM

Look at the mess 3 adults can create in a day.
Breakfast, Lunch and dinner.
I honestly hate washing the dishes.
Even though I used to think it was fun playing with the soap and cleaning the plates,
it is not fun at all.

, 4:50 PM

hello world,

I'm officially back from my exclusive trip to India. After being there for 14 days, I pretty much can say that I've seen a lot after traveling to different states of India. It was definitely an incredible adventure, however it was good, bad and the very ugly.

Poverty, Corruption, Over-population, bias feelings and over-sensitivity.

In social studies, we all were once taught how different factors lead to certain types of causes in a country. Funny how it can be applied in front of your very own eyes.

Saturday, April 11, 2009, 12:25 AM

From unreal to real,
From darkness to light,
From death to immorality.
words quoted from one of the many Hindu temple in Delhi, India.

Monday, April 6, 2009, 3:35 AM

Chaotic streets, reckless drivers and unending hymns of horns.

The rich are really rich, and the poor are extremely poor.
They both sit at the end of the spectrum.
First class, second class, average class, third class, and just homeless and extremely poor.
You see the best and worse of people.
You take a moment to realize, our lives isn't so bad.

, 2:51 AM

Be there, be in the moment

How cute is this, the plane's lights were pink and blue before take-off.

Singapore, full of lights.
Where were you at 7:20pm on Saturday, 4th April 2009 hmmm?
lol.

Sunday, April 5, 2009, 4:24 AM

Incredible Indiaa

welcome aboard my latest adventure...
India baby.

Friday, April 3, 2009, 5:26 AM

I got lost in your brown eyes

In your brown eyes, walked away
In your brown eyes, couldn't stay
In your brown eyes, you watch her go

And turn the record on
And wonder what went wrong
What went wrong

If everything was everything
But everything is over
Everything could be everything
If only we were older

Guess its just a silly song about you
And how i lost you
And your brown eyes

In your brown eyes, i was feeling low
'cause they're brown eyes and you never know
Got some brown eyes, but a soft face

I knew that it was wrong
So baby, turn the record on
Play that song

Where everything was everything
But everything is over
Everything could be everything
If only we were older

Guess its just a silly song about you
And how i lost you
And your brown eyes

Everything was everything
But baby its the last show
Everything could be everything
But it's time to say goodbye so
Get your last fix, and your last hit
Grab your old girl with her new tricks

Honey yeah, it's no surprise
I got lost in your brown eyes

In your brown eyes
Brown, brown eyes
Your brown eyes
Brown, brown eyes
Got some brown eyes
Brown, brown eyes
Brown eyes

Funny thing is I see you like nobody does.
What a beautiful tragedy,
you are fragile and broken.
But in my eyes and my eyes alone,
you are a beautiful disaster.
I care for you like nobody does,
but you are so numb you can't even feel me.
Mistakes are mistakes,
the past is the past.
One day I hope an angel blows magic dust in your face,
and you'll realize i was truthly there.
You blindly watch me walk pass you
and then, that'll be too late.

But baby, where they knock you down and out

Is where you oughta stay

Step in, Step out. Look into my crystal ball.
mademoiselle Zara, 140990 hotmail/facebook/tumblr Dysfunctional in my stupor, but if you look beneath the surface, you'd find whimsical serendipity. — Excuse me while I kiss the sky Poetry Men see things in a box, and women see them in a round room. Exits Allure Bloom Crane Denotation Enigmatism Flair Grace Hope Initiation Archives October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 February 2010 Credits ©Glamouresque.	Thursday, April 30, 2009, 7:31 PM ostracized alienation. Sunday, April 26, 2009, 6:41 AM I just lost my phone. I still can't believe I no longer have my phone with me. I know i did make a little noise when I first got the phone. I wasn't used to the typing and how the whole phone was working. But I did really love it, in my materialistic desires I truly loved it. I loved how all the buttons had a different language wordings on them. I loved how I was never really fond of it being pink, but it just fell into place with me. I know material things should never matter in a person's life, however i just can't accept the fact it's gone. It's a device, with a battery running its life and when that battery dies so does all forms of communications that pass through it. What's just tearing me apart is, all the contacts and all the memories that i've experienced with that phone. All the messages, pictures and history and places i've been with that phone. Even without auto-roaming, i still brought it to Europe,India and Kl. All the memories and all gone. Memories that are in the past should be in the past and not brought into the future. Despite all that bullshit we all tell ourselves time after time, you got to admit. (you do the same thing.) There were some things from last year that was still dear to my heart even though that's all in the past now. Even messages from this year that had made an impact was all stored. People, loved ones, overseas details. Most people won't understand, but all of that meant something to me. And now, it's all gone like dust in the wind. The whole time I had this running thought in my head : What other major obstacles in my life do i have to handle? Cause it seems everytime I get back up, something hits me down. Just as I switch off my overwhelmed racing mind, emotions took over. As I'm weeping by the riverside, I start to recall the last time I ever cried or had cried this hard was when I got my heart-broken. Tears were so foreign to my face, it was disturbing. It felt as though, from the moment till now I lost all my emotions. To have that thought in my head or to think that, that was even possible was just unexplainable. People around me were trying to put positive words into my stubborn head, ( but we all know when you are overwhelmed with emotions you tender to just not listen.) And then it hit me, was this it? Was this the IT that I've been asking for? I've been questioning my life alot for awhile and just recently have more questioning done no good but filled it with more doubts. I asked for something, anything in my life to happen to give me a clue. Was the universe somehow letting me let go of everything, and starting something new? A brand new start or a better continuation without the past? With that, to everyone out there please don't contact me with that number for now. Friday, April 24, 2009, 10:43 PM 1,2,3.. poof Thursday, April 23, 2009, 3:06 PM The life of a rose. , 2:44 AM Give me books, french wine, fruits, fine weather and a little music played out of doors by somebody I do not know - John Keats Wednesday, April 22, 2009, 11:19 PM Look at the mess 3 adults can create in a day. Breakfast, Lunch and dinner. I honestly hate washing the dishes. Even though I used to think it was fun playing with the soap and cleaning the plates, it is not fun at all. , 4:50 PM hello world, I'm officially back from my exclusive trip to India. After being there for 14 days, I pretty much can say that I've seen a lot after traveling to different states of India. It was definitely an incredible adventure, however it was good, bad and the very ugly. Poverty, Corruption, Over-population, bias feelings and over-sensitivity. In social studies, we all were once taught how different factors lead to certain types of causes in a country. Funny how it can be applied in front of your very own eyes. Saturday, April 11, 2009, 12:25 AM *From unreal to real,* *From darkness to light,* *From death to immorality. words quoted from one of the many Hindu temple in Delhi, India. Monday, April 6, 2009, 3:35 AM Chaotic streets, reckless drivers and unending hymns of horns. The rich are really rich, and the poor are extremely poor. They both sit at the end of the spectrum. First class, second class, average class, third class, and just homeless and extremely poor. You see the best and worse of people. You take a moment to realize, our lives isn't so bad. , 2:51 AM Be there, be in the moment* How cute is this, the plane's lights were pink and blue before take-off. Singapore, full of lights. Where were you at 7:20pm on Saturday, 4th April 2009 hmmm? lol. Sunday, April 5, 2009, 4:24 AM Incredible Indiaa welcome aboard my latest adventure... India baby. Friday, April 3, 2009, 5:26 AM I got lost in your brown eyes In your brown eyes, walked away In your brown eyes, couldn't stay In your brown eyes, you watch her go And turn the record on And wonder what went wrong What went wrong If everything was everything But everything is over Everything could be everything If only we were older Guess its just a silly song about you And how i lost you And your brown eyes In your brown eyes, i was feeling low 'cause they're brown eyes and you never know Got some brown eyes, but a soft face I knew that it was wrong So baby, turn the record on Play that song Where everything was everything But everything is over Everything could be everything If only we were older Guess its just a silly song about you And how i lost you And your brown eyes Everything was everything But baby its the last show Everything could be everything But it's time to say goodbye so Get your last fix, and your last hit Grab your old girl with her new tricks Honey yeah, it's no surprise I got lost in your brown eyes In your brown eyes Brown, brown eyes Your brown eyes Brown, brown eyes Got some brown eyes Brown, brown eyes Brown eyes Funny thing is I see you like nobody does. What a beautiful tragedy, you are fragile and broken. But in my eyes and my eyes alone, you are a beautiful disaster. I care for you like nobody does, but you are so numb you can't even feel me. Mistakes are mistakes, the past is the past. One day I hope an angel blows magic dust in your face, and you'll realize i was truthly there. You blindly watch me walk pass you and then, that'll be too late.
But baby, where they knock you down and out Is where you oughta stay